16 janv. 2011


I don't know how to start this post.
Maybe i should speak about all my memories from the last year first, or, about my new resolutions of the new one.
Okay let's go.
2010 was … weird … Many highs and many lows happened … a few things made me so happy and so many another made me cry. But it's why a life needs to be live i think...
If i should speak about 2010... wow i don't know how to start … Okay Well …. erm … i'm reading an awesome book, and at the last of the Chapter 1 the author said it's good to make lists. So i'll compose this post chronologically and as a list =)

In January, I played my first solo show in a french pub ! I was so nervous but so happy to play some songs with my young b rother and to be with my sweet friend Jessy. For the first for a while, I saw my father be proud of me … it was a weird feeling but a good one ! This day realized he might be proud of me …!

February was a good month, I went to Paris to spent a wonderful day with my awesome friend Auré. I'll never forget this sunny day at Paris and I hope we could have another one soon.

April. Oh well April … it was the weirdest month of this year .. like really. This month I started to believe more than ever. Again and again. I feel so blessed & strong for it. I could write so many papers about this month, about every feelings, to thanks every persons who supported and helped me during all these month but especi ally during this one … I already talked about it in a previous post (“Please Get Well Soon” - posted on May 10, 2010) so I don't wanna repeat myself. But I am not able to thanks you my friends, and you my hero as you all deserve it. I am so sorry.

In May with the Adventys we p layed at a Festival and it was our last gig together. It was 3 beautiful years with you guys like really. I'm still loving you. In my heart we're staying the rock band Adventys. For this day, be on stage is one the thing I miss the most...

I miss this feeling... it's also one of my fav picture of the year.
Demian Arriaga

I liked June a lot. I went to Paris for a 2nd time to see Indochine performing a big show at Stade de France on June 25. After this weekend at Paris I never realized that i'll lost my friend June … Yes … She don't speak to me anymore … I feel like broken ... June 30 was like a rebirth night. Be on stage with ThirtySecondsToMars with my sweet and crazy friend Laurie was one of the most epic thing I never lived before.

After the month where I learn to never give up and always believe, the one of reborn time, it's now time to speak about the month of freedom. July. Yes. After 5 years of suffering and pain at HighSchool, I'd finally been graduated ! Since this special day, my dad never look at me as before. Everything's feeling like new, perfect, and easier. It was like a new life started... After my graduation announcement, I joined my young brother for an epic night at the Antic Theater of Vienne to watch a night I waited for a while: Diana Krall + Elvis Costello. OH YEAH ! Still can't believe it ! We were first row it was just so magic !
I worked during July and the both first weeks of August then I had got a brand new job. I know... I was a bad girl to get this 2nd job because my doctor said that I must take some vacations but I took it to get more money and especially to get more change to meet him when he will come to Europe. I accepted this job because they said to me that I had to work as cashier (it's a calm job), but when I came the first day, they switched my planning to so many hard working tasks even if I worked as cashier the first day. I will not hide you the truth: It was a real fail. I wasted 6 hours standing up without any minutes to sit down even few minutes … when I finally put my ass on my car and turn on the music, I heard this song and even if it's an happy song, I cried all the tears from my body.

Well, here we are again
Throwing punchlines, no one wins
As the morning sun begins to rise, we're fading fast
And we won't work this out

"Tonight" – Jonas Brothers

I cried during the road trip to get back home. It was just too much for me. My body, my mind, me couldn't continue … I was more than exhausted... I never cried like that before in my whole life... I finally drove during 1h30 instead of 45 minutes to get back home to finally explained to my parents why I won't come back to work over there and why I took this job. My mother was angry but she was so comprehensive and let me come to vacations with them.

No, we're not gonna work this out tonight
(We won't work this out)
No, we're not gonna make this right
So I'll give a kiss and say goodbye
(Give a kiss goodbye)
'Cause we're not gonna work this out

"Tonight" – Jonas Brothers

Yes August was hard, but vacations were so blessing. I saw so many beautiful thing like the sea. I didn't saw it since 2 years and it was so relaxing. I was still worry about him as usually... I am still worry for every important persons in my life.... this is just …. me =) And yes, August was weird too about another thing that only my sweet Jessy can understand why ;)

A new life is about to start...

Lady Gaga

September means the beginning of a new school year. I became a student of Esia 3D (Animation 3D, Special Effects, Videos Games and more), I got a sweet and so funny roomie named Fanny, and my sweet Jessy & I went to Paris to watch the Camp Rock 2 French Premiere. I liked it ! AND it was THE month of the Final games of the French Softball Cup ! Verdict: Card's (my team) is the 5th best team of France ! SO PROUD ! I also met an extraordinary girl who is now one of my closest friend ! I love her so much ! Thank you girl for every night, sushi time and more spent with you !

Again 3 months to close this list of my 2010 year … I get the chance to met Julian Perretta on October 6 (and i was photographer on his first real show at Lyon), I turned 20 on October 18 and the most important thing happened during this month was: Les Miserables 25th Anniversary at London O2 Arena ! It was just a PERFECT weekend... I can't say more it was just so magic, epic, wonderful, perfect, sweet and more and more and more and more and more ! If I could i'd like to come back there right now ! For my 20 birthday I went to a sushi restaurant with June … It was the last time I saw her, I spoke to her, I slept with her …

Julian Perretta & I - Lyon Showcase FNAC - October 6.

I'm jumping directly to December, where I got not replied from her... she was my best friend and she never replied to me about my Merry Christmas & Happy New Year text messages … I am just so disappointed …

During this year, my health got some highs and lows... but I stayed strong, never stopped fighting and, especially, I kept the Faith. I just have a problem since December 'cause my glycemia is very high … and just starting for yesterday to down a bit … hope it will be back at its normal level soon 'cause these highs and lows make me angry, tired, happy, angry, tired, depressed, angry, tired, depressed, happy … –' it just so annoying and I am sure its not fun to every persons who are living around me everyday …. I am sorry guys.

My 2010 wish was to meet my hero. it's also my 2011 biggest wish. i am still hoping and praying for. with all my heart. 'cause i wanna believe that every dreams can become true one day.

I can't close my year without speaking about THE movie of the year: Inception. It was just … wow … I watched so many movies this year (1 per week min) but this one was just so … incredible ! O_O I am still like … nothing while watching it and I am currently listening the OST while writing this blogpost. First time I watched it, I realized how important are our dreams in our life …

This movie inspired me to write a new song last December...

Like Leonardo in his movie
I wanna make it
Put It in your head
As it could be yours
But I confess
it's my
Inception to you.

Inception – Lily'C

At School I am living beside a girl who can't stop lying … Everyday she is lying more and more … That's absolutly awful that a kind of person like her can exist. I am sure she could be a great girl without lies … I just can't understand why some people needs to lie just to exist... They probably think lies are the only one way to love … They are totally wrong.

I think the only one way to love is to stay yourself, believe in yourself, and love yourself first.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.”

Nature Boy – Eden Ahbez / Nat King Cole

At the beginning of this post, I spoke about a book I am reading. It's “God Loves Ugly (but love makes beautiful)” by the sweet and wonderful Christa Black. In less few pages, this book became the 3rd book of my lost of “Book for Hope”. It helps me to Keep the Faith more and more day by day. Sometimes, yes, I confess I lost the Faith, but I remember what my Hero Jack Lawless made for me and what Christa is writing in her book and I believe again. I know everyone is different, everyone react, live, sleep, think differently than the other persons around them. I know Christa has her own demons, you who is reading this post you have your personal ones and I have my own demons too. But if you stay strong, and you don't forget how important it's to Keep the Faith, to never Give Up and Always believe in your whole dreams then you could finally fight your demons with a huge success. Without it all we can't live in peace with ourself.

It's easier to hide our pains behind a smile...

Christa Black

Christa's book makes me realize how important are these things, how important are these demons inside me, inside my heart. These ones who are killing me day by day for a while.

Even if my Love Bucket is empty, I don't wanna be a failure anymore. I wanna succeed. And i'll do.

I'll fight everyday to sing again, to compose many new songs, to get a chance to speak about all these things with Christa one day, and … To get a small chance to meet my hero, to hug him and say to him how much I am still blessing and helping by his tweet and his DM to me last April, to thanks him about all this strength he gave me this night and to thanks him just to be my personal powerful and hero. I'll just need few seconds. The best ever.

I'll Give my whole life
To get this chance
One minute only
The perfect one.
I wanna lost my mind into your arms
I'll leave this place
Take this flight finally
I won't get back
This one way only.

“One Way Only” - Lily'C

This year a girl named Karine put comments on my posts and I never took some minutes to answer to her so I have a special message to her: Thank you so much girl ! Currently Doctors are not able to say which is my disease … Im passing so many tests but nothing... about one special disease... about some of them but not one special one... I am still waiting. You can hear my songs on my MySpace and my Youtube Channel. Thank you so much again !

I will pray the next four months, for a men i don't know but i know his fiancée and i love her a lot. She is one of the sweetest girl i ever know and i really hope he will get back to her soon. Take Care Erwan. God Bless you. My prayers are with you.

I'd like to say that I am so sorry to everyone who were annoying about me this year, I know about what I am talking about 'cause I already spoke about it with some of you. I love you guys and still praying for you all.
Special thanks to Christa Black, Demian Arriaga, John Taylor & Rob Hoffman to take few minutes to watched my videos, listened my songs on MySpace, and of course sent me tweets to comment them all. It means a lot guys. Thank you so much.

Always sing from your soul, be you and stay honest.

From Demian Arriaga to me.
Don't worry Demian i'll never forget it.

I Won't Stop Believe...

My Hero. Jack Lawless.

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart my dear friends.
Don't forget to Keep the Faith and to Never Give Up 'cause A Little Bit Longer and We'll Be Fine.

God Bless You.

All my Love.

Your dearest, (L)ily.

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